okk. he broke up with mii.
but neverrmindd. i wontt cryy.
i dontt wannaa cryy


Walking alone
All alone
Once again
'Cause, like usual, I was fooled
Heartbreak after heartbreak
I never learn my lesson
No one can love me as I need
Love can be great
But in the end
Can also cause hate
Why can't I find my one and only true love?
But then, again
I have figured
I don't deserve that kind of love
But, I thought I found the one
When I found you
And, I have this feeling
This love for you,
In my heart,
Will last a long time
And knowing that, hurts like hell
Why can't I get over you?
Why can't I just forget you ever existed?
Why do I have to go through another heartbreak?
Why? Why? Why?
Once again I was fooled
Love can be a foolish game
You always lose
And the only thing you gain
Is the knowingness
For next time




My heart is bleeding
Of your blood
I just want to die
I have nothing more to give
You have taken it all away, selfishly
And greedily
I am left here alone
And sick
You never deserved my love
And your love was fake
Why did i even bother?
I guess i thought you were different
But like usual, I was wrong
Just like the rest of them
A player
A bullshitter
You don't know the meaning of love
Or a good relationship
One filled with loyality and respect
And now I am here left alone
Once again
Heartbroken and all torn up inside
Why do I even bother?
Why do I keep doing this to myself?
Why do I let guys like you screw up my life?
Oh, well,
Life's a bitch and then you die
And I hope bitches like you die
'Cause I am heartbroken and all torn up inside
And you are the one who did this to me

okayy. haven't been updating cos my keyboard's spoilt.
hellos. haha. im like. at tiffany's house.
was suppose tuu do project but ended up playing tennis with yongsheng and pamela.
hahh (: so fun.
... like wth. tiffany and yiwen took drinks for themselves and forgot about us. -.-
like helloo. we're guests.
HAHAHA =/
okay so now tiffany is preparing drinks for us.
ANDand AND. pamela is bugging me tuu let herr sign in her msn. okay.
PAMELA. wait a while can.
pamela: sure
haha. i'm so lame =/
okayy. so pamela's giving mii that ' okay-im-so-bored ' kind of look.
okay so i shall let her use the laptop. woooooooo.
haha.

so it's gonna be my turnn later!
yea ^^v toodles (:

okays. here's what i think. people are getting more and more stupid everyday.
as long as you're a human being. you're stupid.
i am stupid too.
cos all of you. are being childish.
like hello.
anonymous. zaneta's blog music is the same as mine. so what? i uploaded the music onto my own account. please think before you jump to conclusions.
and please specify which amanda you're talking about.
how the hell would i know which amanda?
and for once. i didn't copy her codes! i don't even know who she is!
so will you please get a life. ohh.
and i have decided to stop. stop talking about sg idol.
so if you wanna come and flood my tagboard with this kind of junk msgs. go ahead. i don't care. i don't care about sg idol.
and whadever you say about me copying. go ahead.
cos i didn't copy. and my conscience is clear. so you know whad? it does not affect me at all.

okay so today. i'm damn pissed. i didn't go badminton cos i didn't feel lyk going.
and didn't go for basketball. cos chuanmin didn't want to go.
so i was left rotting at home.
happy (: ? no.
not at all.
goodbyes and goodnites.

hmm kayys. let's recall. what did i do today.
ohhh! the moment i woke up. which is at 1pm. joey called me. haha. tmr playing badminton at gombak stadium. not the running track stadium. the other one on the other side. haha. hmm. so okay. meeting them at 3.3opm tmr. halfway through my brunch. chuan min called me. and asked me to play basketball at 288. so. okay i agreed. very freestyle (:
haha. so went there. couldnt find yongjie. only saw chuanmin. so. okay. whatever. very bored today. shan't continue. it'll bore you people to tears. it's 11.16pm now. gahhs. I MISS HIM! but i can't contact him. wth. but nevermninds (:
shall sent him a message from the internet before i go to bed (:

ohgawd. my heart is aching with pain. sighs. i can't contact him anymorre! ohmygosh! i don't think i'll survive for longg. it really hurts ): missing him so much. okays. i bought a new hi-card. BUT! i'm not allowed to tell anyone my number. *sighs. okay..! i did tell him my number. bwahahas (: AND now i'm only allowed to use my handphone when i'm out or in school! pathetic. and what's more i don't think i'm gonna be allowed to go to the chalet on monday. NO! that's the last thing i want it to happen! oh yes. and i'm darn annoyed. there's someone posing as me in gena's tagboard. yea. screw you. and btw. for your information. i don't use lousy words like ' eu ' or rather ' muiix '. typical singaporean ACT-CUTE language. shit you. why do you have to use my name? don't you have a name you bloody burger? puerile.
i'm feeling so damn frustrated AND annoyed!
and i don't like this skin! gahhs! and i don't wish to submit this to blogskins. haha. so probably i'll give it to someone else. anyone wants it?

what the hell man. olinda's out. slyvester's in. urgghh. i hate singapore. singapore doesn't know how to vote. I SWEAR I'M NOT GONNA WATCH SINGAPORE IDOL ANYMORE. singapore idol simply sucks. the judges suck too. singapore! why is your taste in music so bad? screw you singapore. screw you sly fans. okayy whateverr.

urghh. i'm having this fucking major headache now. ahhhhh! i can't stop thinking about how stupid singapore really is! and for sly fans out there. i'm sorry that i say he sucks. but he does to me. different people have different tastes as quoted from JoCeZ who have written in my tagboard and reprimanding me about what i have said about sly. but i do have to remind you people. that this is my blog. and whatever content that is written in here. is all. none of you. outsider's businesses get it? so please don't be as puerile as JoCeZ. and please do think about what you are gonna say alrites. and i really wasn't expecting sly to be in. he's so not handsome! he's not even fit to be singing classicals. and you know what? i think taufik's WAY better than sly. so if sly's not out this week. he's gonna be out next week. okay whatever. our school's gonna have an open house next week. on thursday. bored. urgghs. wonder if my parents will allow me to go for chalet on monday. *shrugs
gahh!! i'm gonna miss all my sec two friends! who are gonna be in sec three next year. different blocks. different recess. everything's gonna be SO different! we're gonna hang out with sec ones next year! and we're gonna be the seniors of the lower sec. i don't want that la! i miss all of them. sighs. nvm. hope i'll do well in my streaming next year! and by the way what's physics all about?

aww. watching singapore idol now. haha. i think slyvester's gonna be OUT. and i WANT him to be OUT! hah. he's not even HANDSOME okay. act cool only.
haha. copy avril's handsign. blahblahs.
okay won't be blogging much. having this major headache now! i miss my dearie much! hah.
love you x)

HAHA! i'm no longer staying at my cousin's house! i'm back! HOME SWEET HOME!
and aww. how sweet of him x) haha. i'm getting mad.
yea well. he sent me home today. hah x)

hmm okayy. saw katherine. saw mei hui with sheng yi. hah. shengyi n meihui was just at the bus stand next to mine la. ohh my gosh. embarrased*
hah. kk didn't do lotsa things today BUT!


I DIDN'T SLEEP AT ALL YESTERDAY!! wheeeeeee! haha.. it's like SO DAMN COOL! haha alrites. i'm tired already. still have basketball training tomorrow. aww shucks.
ciaos adios (:

gahhh! i didn't sleep yesterday. and it's like 9.45am only. woke up at 6pm yesterday. AND didn't have the mood to sleep. AT ALL.
haha. so at 6am this morning. when with Krystal to mcdonalds. to have breakfast. LUCKILY. mac's was open at that time. haha. ate there until 7.o2am.
then headed off to her mum's shop. ok. so it's still early now. but i don't feel tired at all. haha.
yea played bball with my cousin. at 7.1oam. played until 8am. then headed off to her mum's shop again (:
she bought the black shoes needed for her mac job.
so we decided to come back home. BUT guess what.

she forgot to take the house keys from her mum.
so we took a bus back to the shop. and took it. THEN!
we were too lazy to walk back so we took a cab. haha.
the fare was $2.5o hees (:


HEY JIAXIN! ((:
i ate my breakfast today. haha. (:

ok will TRY to update later if my cousin allows me too.
toodles (:

aww shucks. woke up at 3.3o pm. like whoa. broke my personal record. it's my first time waking up at such a 'decent' time.
hahs. so went to play basketball with my cousins. and their friends. hah. played for a while then we went to eat. haha. breakfast and lunch and dinner together yea?

save money x.__ ((:


okays so. i bought frog leg congee. without realising it was $6. bleahs. so Kristin lectured me and said that i had to finish that huge bowl or else.

hah. AND plus they gave me a timing. had to eat within 15 minutes. haha yea and so. i did. luckily. hah. 15 minutes on the dot (:


ahh. miss him so much x)
hahas. oh. this' for jacqueline (:


hey jacq. don't be too upset or whatever about those anonymous people tagging at your blog. they don't even deserve some attention. they probably have some brain damage or are mentally disabled. they are probably attention seekers yea? they aren't as popular as you or loveable. they are just being childish and everthing. nosing into other people's businesses. kaypohs (: just stay out aiites? stupids. cowards you don't even dare to reveal your own name. so in what position are you in to lecture jacq? crazy burgers. shut up and die bloody morons. AH! so jacq. there are lotsa people out here who supports you. so don't bother about those who hate you. so those people out there. if you hate jacq. so be it. say it infront of her and don't be such a coward flooding people's tagboard with unpleasant messages.


SCREWW OFF yea?


attention seekers. you all are just suckers yea. stay off. bitches/bastards.
or you might be bisexual. whatever. i don't care.

just. ughh. get a life won't you?

heyy man (:
lol. woke up so damn late today. HAH X) woke up at 12noon. and me an my cousins were supposed to meet their friends at henderson at 1.3opm!

hah. so woke up. bathe in a rush. and went to the bus stop at 1.o6pm. and we reached there EXACTLY at 1.3opm.
and guess what. we didn't have any idea what we're gonna to do at expo.
and when we reached there.
the first word we said. and it was WE. not just me.
was ' walao'
and you know what was it ALL about?


road safety.

they had this. little traffic game. traffic lights. paths. and whatsoever. and it's like. ALL SO MINI-SIZED. ok. and the worse thing is.
we HAVE to play it. gahhhs. tough luck. me and one of my cousin _. Krystal _
had to ride bicycles. we wanted SO MUCH to be pedestrians. ahhhhh.
too bad but my other cousin _. Kristin _ was a pedestrian.


tell me about swayy luck =/
hmm so okayy. went home at about 4.3opm. sat bus from expo. all the way to east coast. changed bus. and sat all the way to tiong bahru plaza.
we ate there. ' RajahInn' hah. we didn't eat from morning till the time when we reached tbp.
we reached at about 6 plus. we were like already starving to death.
hah but luckily ate something la.

hmm so okayy. went to get my basketball and played at tiong bahru cc.
we were halfway through when Krystal's idol came. hah. gave her a shock.
he likes to laugh -.-

he's like so damn accurate lor.
ahhhh. hmm okayy. and bebe came. then blahblah.
Krystal's idol was MUCHMUCH more gentlemanly then bebe. hah X) yea really!

and then so.. we played until 9pm and we went home. bought drinks at 7-11 and watched the best bet. and blahblahblah. bathed.

ok nothing more to say =/

toodles. good nites.
miss you X)

heees. it's 11.59pm now. 1 more minutre to my cousin's birthday. namely Krystal.
bwahahah.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY. it's 12am noww.
bleah. didn't update yesterday.
cos didn't use the comp.
won't be going Ravenized training this Saturday i guess. haiyah. so bored.

- reminisce -
on wednesday _

i was late for basketball. and got punished. had to run 15 damn rounds around the basketball court. neverminds la.


haha. train my stamina (:
and erm after trainingg. went westmall with yiwen to him la.
then yiwen went to cherie's house to do the geography project we were suppose to do.
which i was suppose to do with yeeping and tiffany.
but

haha. too badi'm enjoying at my cousin's house now.
hmm ok.

watched shark's tale. it was like hilarious.
Oscar The SharksSlayer.
haha. lenny was a vegetarian.
=/ blahblah.
he was like haha. sweet?




sent me from choa chu kang to tiong bahru.
hah.
aiites.
too bad his plans didn't work. whatever his plans are la.
hahas.

aiites. it's my cousin's birthday.
i'll be a good person.



and let her use it.

HAH.
as if.

whadever.

ahh my hp. sighs. i have a handphone.

but with no line!
and no money!

*sobbs
hehs.


but i think i'm gonna get my line. sooner or later. erm. should i subscribe starhub m1 or singtel?
ahh! guess i'll get my line together with peiyun.
but i guess. she'll have a line but no hp.
hahs



like wth. my mum disallows me from going to work ):
shucks.
i have got no money right now.
i having financial problems! hah.
lame.


gleeps.
saw alot of people thanking their friends in their entries.
should i write?
nah i've got a dedication page.
nah.
guess i'll do it next year. HAHA. oh god. i'm like. so damn lame.



i'm bored. tired.
tired. bored.
i wanna sleep. hahs.
but i can't! i have to stay awake until like. four plus..?
cos my darling's gonna come online.
hahas. i'm feeling really terrible. i'm like having a flu? ewwww. mucus. *feels disgusted. ahhhhhh! i'm so bored. there ain't any games for me to play. runescape? bleahs. guess i'll try it.
SOMEDAY sometime.
haha.



will update tonight again i guess.
toodles *

yawns.
howdys ((:
guess i'm gonna change layout again.
but this time.
with no images.
hah.
i'm gonna get bored with them one day.


hmm.
had basketball training today.
i was late.
once again.
woke up at 8.45am.
when the training starts at 9
hah.
everyone had finished running their 10 rounds while i was the only one who's lagging behind them by 10 rounds.
how pathetic.
hah.
training was boringg.

had lunch at some kopitiam near westmall.
the yong tau foo ain't really that bad.
it's really nice ((:
AHH.

godd.
i'm so happy!
mummy's finally bought the television to put in my room!
wheeeee.



godd.
i feel so. lost.
so empty.
my HANDPHONE line has been cut off.
wth.
*cries
sighs.

oh god.
i didn't update yesterday cos i wans't at home.
for the whole day.
went to yiwen's church.
andd it was like so damn fun.
went with.
pamela. yiwen. peiyun. raymond. and
YONGSHENG.
while they were worshipping.
i mean. singing songs la.
and they had actions like dancing.
ora something like that.
yongsheng was jumping around and dancing.
it was.
omg. so funny.
seems like he's enjoying himself alot.
hah.
reached home at about erm. 9.15pm
yea. so i bathe. and i went to sleep.
so tired.
hehhs ((:
andd i wonderr whadd to buy for gena.
herr birthdayy's on erm.
24th novemberr.
or should i just give her moneyy?
HAH ((:
nahh.


stewwpid raymond.
made me bring home this huge bag of balls.
BASKETBALLS i mean.
and now i have this 4 basketballs at home.
rotting.
one is Tiffany's bball.
the other 3 are Ravenizedd bballs.
oh god.
i'm damn bored.
yea but going orchard laterr ((:
withh my mom, sister, aunty and cousins.
hah. but i dun't really feel likee going though.
oh yea.
i remember.


anyone wanna learn badminton??
$15 per lesson.
it's considered cheap already.
cos the professional's outside charge you $75 for 2 hours.
and we need to pay for the booking of courts.
which is $7.40 per hour. at bukit gombak sports hall.
and the cost of shuttles.
NOT shuttle buses but shuttle corks.
however you spell that.
aiyahh.
im earning only $4 per hour.
ANDandAND lemme get this clear.
i'm not teaching.
so will you guys just stop mocking at me.
AND JUST SHUT UP.
and i'm really getting pissed ok.
urrghhhs. anndd anndd im gonna sell ice-cream.
with yongsheng and peiyun!
wheeeeeee!!
hahhs ((:

aiites i shall stop here.
toodless*

wow.
everyone's obsessed with this show called.
erm.
The Champions?
Ren Wo Ao You.
i couldn't understand whadd they were saying.
is it really that nice.
it's like.
about everyone i know will be either offline.
or putting AWAY and ( watching tv ) at this time.
9.o0pm
hahs X)
*screams
where's that dumb television that used to be in my room!
without it.
i have thus stopped watching tv that often.
cos i'm lazy to go to the living room.
i don't wanna fall asleep there!
uggh. creepy.
oh boy.
guess i have to get started on my holiday assignments.
gee. i really must buck up.
or i won't be able to get into the class of my dreams.
and the subjects i want.
i don't WANT geography.
seriously i don't.
i simply detest it.
gleep.

yawnns*
i'm dead beat.
made skins for aishah and si xuan.
making skins are tiring.
yawn.
my darling came to my house to play gunbound today (:
he improved by alot.
hahs (:
i was in a foul mood that time.
lalalas (:
and i accidentally typed.
erm. hahs (:
don't really wanna say it out.
yea.
nothing more to say.
will update tomorrow.
hahs X)

gasp*
i failed 3 subjects.
oh my gosh.
namely.
maths. literature ANDandAND geography.
what else?
i've never.
NEVER.
ever passed geography.
right straight from term 1.
till now.
NEVER.
even had a pass before.
like what the.
i'm not gonna take geography when i'm sec 3.
i WILL not i say.
DAMN. i'm ranked 27th in the class.
how pathetic is that.
and 138th in the whole level.
among 2o0 pupils.
AND what's more.
i've got a FAIR for conduct.
i hate my form teacher.
she sucks.
ITS HER.
ALL HER FAULT.
that my hair got cut!
ugghh.
this is what she said for my remarks.


Rachelle has been easily distracted by friends. She has not been performing this semester. She has to be more serious in her daily work and be more responsible in her actions.


like wth.
do you think i care.
i don't even care if you sack me as a councillor.
cos you know what.
i don't give it a damn.
hahs (:
i don't want her to be my maths teacher next year.
AHH!
go away you bloody burger.
i hate you.
don't be my maths teacher.
or i'll continue to sleep in your bloody classes.
hah.

ok. stop crapping.
aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh.
i'm so damn bloody embarassed today.
gena came and asked me.
who destroyed me.
and pamela asked if i needed a lawyer.
gosh. there are only 3 people who taught that my bloody hairstyle was cute.
i was expecting that number.
i didn't even classify my NEW haircut as CUTE.
fugly. yes.
funny. yes.
stupid. yes.
uughh. ok.
whatever.
my hair'll grow longer by the time school re-opens (:
but by that time.
all my sec 2 friends are gone.
sobs. different recess. sighs.
gonna miss them so much.
especially my darling.
sighs. *cries
lalala. whatever.
i've spent 15 minutes on this entry.
hahs (:
toodles.